December 2009
i never knew that everything was falling through...
sexandthecity
Big: after awhile, you just want to be with the one that makes you laugh
blogsecret,youstalkme.
13638.) I keep every txt that says something sweet to me because Im afraid thats the last time I’ll ever recieve one like it. I look through my messages every day just to read those & feel that at one point in time they cared. Thats why I dnt let people go through my phone.
(via blogsecret)
nothing too big or small you can have it all...
blogsecret?
13640.) Sometime I wish I lived in the internet so I could talk to my internet friends all the time and didn’t have to deal with the shit I put up with IRL.
(via blogsecret)
“Christmas sounds so much better with you in it.”
im not weak, im stronger then i think i am.
when you dont apologize to me right away, like you do to them does that mean i just dont deserve one and your only giving me one because you cant stand the drama or are you not apologizing because you really have to think about whether or not im worthy of your apologies. is it because im the weak one and you want to see how long i’ll go being upset and breaking down or are you just not...
wherethewildthingsare
Carol: will you keep out all the sadness?
Max: i have a sadness shield that keeps out all the sadness, and its big enough for all of us.
i used to know you so well
13562.) I pushed you away because I knew that if you stayed, I could never turn you down. You are the most beautiful and most terrible thing that’s ever happened to me, and you will always have my heart.
(via blogsecret)
fucking quit it.
13567.) You drown me in the darkest self hate imaginable then you drag me out and raise me to the most amazing sunlight. Fucking quit it.
(via blogsecret)
agony
13571.) I fantasize in getting in an accident, and being in a coma for a year or 2, yet it wont chage anything. Im not suicidal, i just think of an easier way out of my life, which always leads to me thinking bout death.
(via blogsecret)
:)
why me?
because you saw me when i was invisable
ilovesleep.
13469.) i just don’t know anymore, i am always the lonely little girl, and sometimes i feel like going to sleep forever would be better then being this unsure about who i am or who i want to be.
hahaha god love you
Emily: okay, if you dont take these from me, ill eat the whole bag so take them
Jocelyn: do you want a code word for when you want them back?
Emily: no! no matter how much i beg for them, dont give them to me.
Jocelyn: is that the codeword?
mylife.
the more people i love the more alone i am. i want to give everyone everything. i want to always be there when you want me there. i will never say no.
fml.
i hate being alone so much i almost thought about being your friend again, but that would make the respect I have for myself plummet.
honestly?
you wake up with a list of all the people you’d rather be, but you’re already on everyone else’s list.
blah
you believe in miracles?
not today.
blogsecret.
13118.) I hate how you hardly ever answer my texts, but when I don’t answer mine - you get all ‘What the fuck?’ Sometimes, I like to see you feel like you make me feel.
americas next top model
Jay Alexander: i just let them know that models arent perfect. i mean, im perfect, but their not perfect.
♥
every word he speaks sets me at ease
Ross: i need to tell you something ...
Emily: yes?
Ross: i love you ..
Emily: thankyou!
Ross: your welcome?
im just convenient .
i used to be so creative so full of life, then HE happened like a bad storm, he happened to my life. he took everything from me, who i was, my mind, my sanity. i’m still picking up the pieces from that disaster and it still hurts knowing that i had him, was in love with him, and he never even loved me to begin with. i was just convenient. and that’s all i’ll ever be is convenient.
i am not sad
i am not sad, he would repeat to hiself over and over, i am not sad. as if he might one day convince himself. or fool himself. or convince others - the only thing worse than being sad is for others to know that you are sad. i am not sad. i am not sad. because his life had unlimited potential for happiness, insofar as it was an empty white room. he would fall asleep with his heart at the foot of...
and never, never forget.
to love. to be loved. to never forget your own insignificance. to never get used to the unspeakable violence and the vulgar disparity of life around you. to seek joy in the saddest places. to pursure beauty to its lair. to never simplify what is complicated or complicate what is simple. to respect strength, never power. above all, to watch. to try and understand. to never look away. and never,...
the secret life
grace: are you making fun of me?
ricky: would i ever make fun of you?
grace: i dont know, would you?
ricky: probably ..